Conflicts Within..

I’m about to go get a few passport-sized photographs taken. I think it’s about the right time to renew my passport and national ID card. I thought of getting a professional picture taken for my new CV to – a requirement here, you see: letting hiring managers put a face to the name/application. I’m somewhat unsure…

100 Truths about Pinkus

 *** Disclaimer *** This has been in my DRAFTS for well over four years now. I just realized I never published it – perhaps because I didn’t consider it quite important or interesting. I have a few seconds on my hands now though. So, just for the fun of it, I am going through this…

Cheating Husbands: Mistresses and Secret Kids

Last night a friend contacted me with the shocking revelation of a “secret child”. Not hers, that is, but that of a close relative. A couple of years ago this revelation would have shocked me and caused my heart to beat just a little faster. Not last night, however. I sighed, reflected, and went about my…

When I Die..

The other day I overheard a conversation between  a Christian and a moralist – it was a conversation centered around what happened when (or after) we died. While both started off on pretty much the same foot – life as a continous development of self, the importance of living a moral life, and the consequences…

The Treasure Found..

It’s interesting to see just how distracted we all can be; how distracting life gets, really. Just yesterday, however, while enjoying a solitary walk again, basking in our last days of summer and taking in Vienna’s clean fresh air, I was once again reminded of both the sanctity and the brevity of life. I reminisced …

Not Even Doormats are Dormant

A couple of weeks ago I really needed help. And while it was hardly a “do or die” affair, my need did create an unhealthy and uncomfortable number of sleepless nights and restless days. From waking up mid-night, to an increased heart-rate and shortness of breath, I simply knew it was time to take action: to…

Just (Keep) Do(ing) It!

A couple of days ago I decided to take a walk round the beautiful city of Vienna, enjoying some fresh air and beautiful final sights before heading back North to Sweden. As I walked about, I was careful to look around and lock eyes: if there was someone in need and I could help, I would. Eventually I did…

Excuse Me, Lock Eyes!

The day I realized I lacked no material things, was the very same sub-zero-degrees day I nearly locked eyes with this middle-aged Austrian man on the train with no shoes. His barefooted state was not a choice, I knew. Feeling compassionate, I closed my eyes, walked up to him, asked him if I could buy…

Let It Go and Laugh!

I find this past year to have been particularly stressful: emotionally, mentally, financially, physically, and spiritually I was drained. Be it pressure from within or without, I found myself – more often than not – choosing to give in (even if only for a while). Looking back, I’m extremely grateful to have made it through –…

The Grand Scheme of Things..

I lost two beautiful posts simply by failing to translate my mental notes into words. Numerous insights I had wished to share disappeared as I chose to trust the capabilities of my mind over my experiences of forgetfulness. I thought I had learnt to manage my inspirations, to store them in a well of delight,…

MoU: Friendship

Last night, at around 3 am, I decided to call my Lady J. If there was someone I could call at 3 am, someone who would bail me out at such unholy an hour, it was her. Sure no lives were at risk and no investments at stake; but it was urgent enough for me. Although I had called…

Loving Lovely London

If there is one thing I am constantly reminded of, it is the fact that I am LOVED. With all the tragedies that are happening around the world, it has sadly become very easy to forget just how blessed one truly is. We hear heartbreaking stories of pain, loss, natural disasters and man-made conflicts, and fail…

Tales of Loss

Admitting he had no more strength to give or words to encourage her with, he resolved to leave. He felt her sadness, not her loss. The loss was his; to hold and to keep. How could she..? Overcome by a plethora of emotions, he needed to sort things out. Things being his thoughts. And he knew he would…

Congratulations, Jeny & Arun!

Last weekend was a super special day and I would’t have missed it for the world! One of my dearest and most precious beautiful friends, Jeny, got hitched in Vienna! Well, in a way anyway.. She celebrated her (Indian) engagement and it really was an extremely wonderful affair! I was probably as excited as I…

Chic Copenhagen

As I hadn’t been back to Copenhagen since I moved away in 2007, I was extremely excited to spend some time re-exploring the chic city and finally catching up with a long-time friend again before travelling on to Vienna. Isn’t it just amazing how cities – like people – change with time? Quite nostalgic in a way…..

Exciting Stockholm

I just got back from a trip to Stockholm and must say that I really did thoroughly enjoy myself! And when I say “thoroughly”, I really do mean to the fullest extent of the law. You see, I was not quite satisfied with the prospect of spending much time by myself, and – not totally convinced…

Pretty and Peaceful Gothenburg

For my birthday two weeks ago, my wonderful friend My and I decided to visit Gothenburg. I hadn’t been there in over six years and was thus thrilled at the prospects of visiting a city so small and pretty again. There were a number of people who successfully managed to make a perfectly normal and…

Sober Reflections..

As it typically happens when you turn a year older, you reflect.. upon yourself and all that relates/connect both to and with/in you. I was (and still am) extremely grateful for everyone who made an otherwise totally ordinary day special. And special it was, because – while I expected nothing – I received so much….

Trips to Öland

It’s been such a long time since I shared anything on here, and so – in the spirit of gratitude – I’ve decided to share again today. Unsure of whether I have already announced it: I have moved to Sweden to embark on yet another study programme, and I’m so far loving it. From the…

Delayed Reaction..

When I cycled back to my dorm this afternoon, the sunny weather was a perfect reflection of my mood. A brief night and successful presentation behind me, I looked forward to lying down for a while and rest, before heading out again. However, the warm weather no longer reflects my mood. It now mocks me. Although…

A Different Kind of Art

Sometimes it’s really nice to bump into an old friend or long-lost/gone acquaintance. To catch up, to bond, to simply continue where you left off. To forget how long it has been since you spoke last and simply reconnect; rekindle the friendship that once was so strong and see if you can perhaps strengthen that…

What Really Matters..

Earlier today (actually just a few minutes ago) I got a call from an acquaintance challenging my “liking” of a Facebook post. I was startled. “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” – Matth. 11:28 I was confused. What exactly was the issue? Well, did I…

He watches over His own..

Just yesterday something rather interesting happened. A friend of mine and I decided to go impromptu-shopping and I misplaced my bank card. Okay, back to the start.. So, I bumped into a friend of mine after work yesterday, on my way to the mall to update my make-up collection (which literally only consists of lip…

A Piece of My Mind..

Don’t you just get frustrated at times? I mean, like really frustrated.. with people, with God!? Don’t you just want to give Him a piece of your mind sometimes? Well, I certainly do. Although I do tell myself, “What’s the point exactly, seeing as He sees and reads and understands your mind.?”, it hardly ever…

How Time Flies..

Roughly this time last year, I did about the same thing as I’m doing today: sitting at my desk at work.. Just that it was a different desk at a different place of work, in a different country; with a different kind of feeling, writing something completely different. Well, maybe not that different anyway: I…

This Sister of Mine..

With all the disasters, massacres, and general distress around the world and its affairs, I’ve been thinking about death a lot, naturally. The natural consequence of what follows actions, a natural reaction. A reaction to things that ought (not) to be. Have you noticed how the media shapes your thoughts and emotions? How the media…

What a Broken Heart Feels Like..

It’s funny I would write this. Well, what’s funny really isn’t so much that I would write this; but that I would write this about this person, ..about her. The case of this broken heart of mine. This isn’t so much a letter to he, as it is a processing of thoughts, for I’ve been thinking…

Mommy at 60!

Today I want to acknowledge someone very special to me: my mother! This day marks the 60th year of her life; and so far, it has been an adventurous and exciting one full of God’s mercy, love, favour and grace! Happy birthday, Mommy! In addition to he marvellous act of conceiving, birthing and nurturing beautiful (both inside…

Une ville très belle!

Some weeks ago I spent some study-related time in France and had an absolutely fantastic stay! From living in an amazing part of Paris to eating out and going shopping, visiting companies and attending lectures, I simply cannot wait to go back again! Although there were a few downs too (one was particularly bad), I had…

My Sweetest Pumpkin and Lovress

And so, here I am (finally).. on my knees, broken and in tears. Fears. Don’t get me wrong. I am not trying to appease anyone. I’m neither trying to win favours, nor attract attention; for who am I? I have solely come to apologize. To apologize for my many wrongs, my ill doings. My carelessness…

Being Fed Up..

I’m currently so occupied, I’ve had absolutely no time for writing; I haven’t had the time to think and reflect much either. I’ve just had no compelling desire to share. You know what, to be completely honest; I’ve simply been fed up. I’ve literally been fed with numerous tasks stemming from work, university, my relationship.. I…

Tears | When your heart tears..

It is precisely how I felt last night. It seemed like a dream. Almost. “Are you sure?” I was tempted to ask. But of course she was. I could see it in her eyes. You wouldn’t make such a call just like that. Telling you a friend had just passed. Just like that..? I guess…

No Longer Searching..

I was rummaging through some unpublished drafts of months and years passed, when I realized how truly satisfying it was to write down your thoughts and share your challenges and/or experiences. Truth is, from the standpoint of now, my previously published post is untrue. For right now I am missing no one and am longing for nothing. Right…

How Do You..?

How do you erase memories of moments not experienced, words not exchanged, feelings not shared? How do you forget someone who never really cared? Someone you were never allowed to love?   Well, I guess you don’t…   I miss him- still But I won’t say. I’ll simply wait for the pain to go away. Perhaps…

The Things People Never Really See..

A couple of weeks ago I realized that, while it took me a lot of personal convincing and motivating and scolding at first, now – come rain, sun or even snow – getting my butt to the gym was simply not an option any-more, it had become second nature. This, in turn, caused me to re-examine…

A Different Chicken & A Different Egg..

I am the least qualified to talk about the origin of mankind (yes, you guessed it; this- of course- is quite the hyperbole and, frankly speaking, a blatant lie) but I want to talk about the origin of things anyway. Not that of the earth or humanity (I couldn’t care less to defend creationism or refute…

When Doing Wrong is Right..

He tried to come up with an explanation; a justification for his wrongful action. You see, at times it is okay to bend the rules; adjust them. Sometimes, when you find grey areas, you step right in. Not forever, but for a season. No judgements, just grace. And if that wouldn’t prevail, then mercy. I…

Bag Lady

There are many things I love. For those of you who know me, not a surprise! I love chocolate, I love cheese, I love coffee, I love travelling, I love books, I love good music, I love God and well, I love.. beards (on men). Oh dear, imagine me combining all these: Picture me on a plane…

Crazy Days..

Don’t you sometimes just pause, sit and wonder.. ..about the state of the earth, this life, our world? The fate of humanity? Sometimes I envy both the dead and unborn.. what do they know? Nothing at all. They are oblivious to it all.. From disappearing and crashing planes, to wars and attacks, shootings and lootings….

A Refreshingly Simple Perspective…

As I sat at my departure gate awaiting my boarding, I envisioned my plane was Lagos- rather than London-bound. Oh, just how exciting that would have be! Having terribly missed the hustle and bustle of that city, I did want to go back, if only for a day. Lagos is just so alive. A city that…

A Year of Rest…

It’s a new year and I am grateful for the excitement I feel within. The excitement of knowing that it will be an awesome year! Why/How, you ask? Well, simply because I will make sure of it! I am determined to make this year an amazing one. You know how you write down resolutions, make…

The Gift of Faith

A couple of weeks ago, when asked what I was especially grateful for in 2014, people thought I was being religious when I said “the gift of faith”. I wasn’t. I was being serious. Just a couple of days ago, I once again had time to reflect upon the year, its ups and downs, my…

Prices & Tags

Earlier this year I made some very profound changes. Changes spanning across numerous areas, aspects and facets of my life. For the sake of this post, let’s just call it My Extreme (Personal) Make-over. Earlier in the year (and I know, to those of you who read my previous post, this might sound somewhat contradictory; but…

My Very Own Pulpit

The past two months have been very interesting; not exclusively because I went MIA (I do apologize for that.. to those who noticed and actually truly care) but because it has indeed been an interesting season. I travelled to Switzerland and had a really great time; I started my Master’s degree, and have been acing all…

Simply.Raw.Bakery

Catching up with friends is always so interesting! Just yesterday my sister and I decided to visit a friend’s vegan bakery store located in a quirky side-road of the heart of Vienna, Am Hof. Although no such thing as an African vegetarian (let alone vegan) exists, I do see myself making quite a few visits to the…