Roughly this time last year, I did about the same thing as I’m doing today: sitting at my desk at work..
Just that it was a different desk at a different place of work, in a different country; with a different kind of feeling, writing something completely different.
Well, maybe not that different anyway: I was penning down my thoughts and feelings, my experience, and titled it a “Grievances Report”. I finished off by handing in my notice. It was time to move on!
This time last year, I thought about the steps to take next.. I thought about moving, rearranging my life.
I thought about personal satisfaction and happiness. I thought about going back to school.
I guess the funniest part of it all was my worry of supposedly having wasted time. In truth, of course, I had done no such thing at all. I had allowed myself be led into unknown territories and experience something new. I had seen the importance of pursuing dreams and believing in visions; in making dreams a reality.
Anyway, as I played with the thought of going back to university and pursuing further degrees, I worried about love, about romance. So that would delay and potential or prospective marriage by another two years? I shared my fears and worries with family members and friends who could not help but giggle and/or hiss at my concern: and so what? Live your life! Pursue your dreams. Whenever it happens, it happens. Do what makes you happy, God’s got your back! There is a time and season for everything. Don’t put your life on hold.. until..
That issue of time..
But today, here I am. With my first year done, and just two semesters away from obtaining my double MA degree. Today, I think back with a shaking head and a heart full of gratitude: thank God I did not give in to worry! Thank God I overcame my fear. Thank God I dropped that resignation letter, packed my bags, boarded that plane, started all over again; or rather: continued on a different path.. maintaing that journey, with someone by my side.
How time flies..